Good Morning Mouse,
I’m writing you early tonight because I think I’m going to be asleep pretty soon. I’m at the end of my energy allotment today. My heart is hurting, and I’m just plain tired, physically mentally and emotionally. Just kinda done.
I spent the past hour writing a little post to Bella pup, going through photos for the post and accessing old memory banks from our first stays back in December. I know I say this about a lot of dog,s but she was really special. I know you saw first hand how she took such good care of me, even at the end when she wasn’t feeling herself.
Big cascade of emotions tonight, finding it hard to keep it together. I’m glad I picked up everything from the old apartment today, gave Obi kitty some loves and closed the door behind me for what will likely be the last time. Kills me every time I say goodbye to him.
So yeah- lots of end of chapter energies floating around. I know they’re all part of the course of life and in so many ways I’m happier, stronger, healthier and more self-aware than I’ve ever been. Despite my brokenness tonight, I am and will continue to be thankful.
Thankful for you, for a second shot at love, life, health, and happiness. Thankful for the moments I’ve had with all these little creatures who have meant so much to me. Who have loved me in their respective 4-legged ways.
I’ve felt a lot of pain in this life, and I haven’t had it easy, (who has) but I’ve also received an absolute TON of loves, and tonight I’m choosing to go to sleep with those loves from you and the memory of their loves in my heart.
I hope you slept well last night my Mouse. I hope you’re up and feeling refreshed renewed and energetic. I hope you’ve got some form of breakky and coffee combo going and you’re at the machine feeling SO DAMN GOOD.
I’m not far behind you! So, Goodmorning!
<3
Dot
